Better late the never....

I know, I know. Where the fuck have i been??  Well let me run it all down for you :)

First Edens MRI was clear! no need to worry about the sacral dimple.  Its not effecting her spine or any of her functions. YAY!  She has also made some insane development advances in the last few months. Talking, yelling at you in protest, running, and she has started Day care 3 days a week. Those three days give me a chance to clean up the tornado that is Eden LOL. 

Azure is back in school, taking two classes! He is doing great :)  He LOVES Ms. Emjay his morning teacher.  That class is full of structure, routines, and the picture system.  His second class is at the preschool.... That is his "do what he pleases class"... He runs around, plays with the toys, gets outside time.  Its more fun based, hardly any structure. But i really like his teachers.  Since school has started his speech and communication has greatly improved.  Today on this wonderful Saturday we even have his FIRST ABA appointment. I have no idea what we will do or how it works.  im still excited. 

Now on to me. My surrogacy journey has finished all the contracts and we how been given a tentative IVF schedule. We start 10/10.  I keep feeling like i should have a moment of "OH fuck what am i doing" but i haven't. I'm really happy to help my IP's have a family. i haven't had any second thoughts.  Now all the shots that has me a wee bit squeamish,.  The progesterone subcutaneous injection is my greatest fear.  I do have an amazing friend that is a former medic that said she could help me. THANK FUCKING GOD for you Elizabeth! My only other worry was the kids being taken care of while i do all my medical appointments. Our amazing friend Erin is going to take care of azure. The effort that she has already put into connecting with him, has been such a gift. I don't have a single worry about him with Erin. Eden was my only worry. Who would watch Eden??  Grandpa to the rescue!  My dad will take care of her and she gets along great with her  "gmpapaa".  We have my wonderful mother in law Kathy coming for a visit, plus I'm hoping i can get my sister in law Jodi to be in LA with me  for the embryo transfer.  Its all coming together!!