I blame me.

With Azures upcoming appointment on Friday i have been looking for ways to distract myself. Careful what you wish for people... 

Here's the back story. Eden was born with a Sacral Dimple. That mean's above her butt there is a deep dimple that makes her butt crack look crazy long. The pediatrician on call that night she was born looked at it 3 times before letting us discharge from the hospital just to "make sure" it was closed. At every Well Baby appointment since then they have always  taken a look at it and said "looks closed" or "pretty sure its closed". I asked at her 9m well baby if we had a way of just making sure it was closed because no doctor has every really said that they thought it was 100% closed.  Glad i asked because at her ultra sound this morning we found out that... ITS NOT fucking CLOSED! 

So that opens the door to a whole new set of Doctor appointments,  MRI, and 99% sure of some form of spinal surgery to close the dimple. Worst case is that she could get an infection in the dimple that will infect her spine. 

This was not the distraction that i had wanted. I was thinking of art activities or taking the kids to the pool. Not coordinating MRI's and doctors appointments with Kevin rotation schedule.  

I think im really mad this wasn't checked earlier. Im angry i had to suggest that we make sure. Im angry at the shock the doctor had when he found out that eden crawled and even walks already. I think i'm just really fucking angry.